I dont know what say other than will some one please take a chanxe with me and help.I love life and would just if even for a little whille live. dont misunderstand me I actually stop and smell the flowers, look at the various greens of the trees, I go to school fulltime at one of the universties where I live, as a older american I have so so health better off than most and I dont want to come off like I dont appreciate what I have, its just that not being able to pay your bills takes as I am finding out it takes its toll on you my love one has sufferred a heart attact and since nether one of us have insurance of any kind I see how we are treated and in part it means less service which can mean life or death. I would like to enjoy life with out being scared all the time. I volunteer and I believe that I am well liked. I love looking at the sky because the colors are beautiful and it takes my mind off of my troubles. I do have a jeep that I pray everyday that it doesnt break down. Is it so terrible of me to want more than I have, whats wrong with enough money to get over the hump until I get out of school in 2011. I know you have to make sacifices and I have and do. I would love to be able to put on a new dress or have some really cute shoes,or a stylish pair of jeans. worry about I know we cant pay for this medication or cutting back on heat in the apt to try and keep the gas bill down, I really need help, will I get proably not but I am at the point where I have to ask because to not try is even worse. I love people and I am a people person and try to help those less forunated than myself but will or can help me. I dont know if I have the right to even ask for help since I am not homeless, but know this I am suffering through life as I never dream could happen to me I dont which way to turn and I feel like I am at my breaking point. I have leared this much it is harder than anything I know this being poor it absolutely horrible and I would not wish it on my worse enemy if I had one, I am to poor for even that. I have so much still to offer and recieve from life I want a to live again and can never forget this journey that I am in, here s to all ofus in the same position as I might we receive our pot of gold we deserve it I know I do!!!!!!!!
